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Stolen or lost journals

My journal was stolen at work, the one that goes with me everywhere.

It was even taken out of the holder I kept it in. They think whoever stole it thought it may have been a cash log or something like that and at this point it's unlikely it'll turn up again unless someone mails it back to me. I am so devastated, I feel like I'm waiting for a ransom note or something. There are entries and memories and mementos I'll never be able to get back.

How do you start a new journal after losing one? Has anyone else ever had a journal lost or stolen? Do you try to rewrite as much as you could?

((•))

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xdogbaitx
Feb. 7th, 2014 03:27 pm (UTC)
some people are just disgusting.

I would never try and rewrite. I would start anew and write a short entry about what happened. Maybe cover the biggest life events covered in the journal. Then totally move on.
yummee_pie
Feb. 7th, 2014 04:14 pm (UTC)
I don't get how someone would have mistaken it for a cash log, dig into my bag, dig it out of the holder and steal it. I had lace and ribbon hanging out of it and it didn't stay closed on its own, so I really don't get how it would have been mistaken as a cash book of all things. There were people with their iPads sitting out and my journal is the one that gets stolen?!

I don't even know how to start my next journal. I drew on a page but rewriting things doesn't feel right but neither does having a big gap in my life story :/
xdogbaitx
Feb. 8th, 2014 08:50 pm (UTC)
I would write out all my feelings in a big angry scrawl to get it out of me, then write with more clarity about what happened. I don't think you should skip what happened.

Would anyone be personally invested in reading your journal at work?
yummee_pie
Feb. 9th, 2014 05:15 am (UTC)
That's one of the things that just doesn't make sense... The people I work with have no interest whatsoever in what I have to say, let alone think. The whole thing is confusing and sad, but I've started my new journal so I'm at least on the right track.
kaishin108
Feb. 7th, 2014 04:47 pm (UTC)
That is awful, I am so sorry! I cannot for the life of me find my journal from the end of last year, it must be around here somewhere, but where? This does have me a bit nervous, but I just started another one. What else can I do.
yummee_pie
Feb. 7th, 2014 05:44 pm (UTC)
I feel for you so much! I'm kind of at that point myself, what else can I do? I feel so conflicted, I don't know how to start my new journal.
kaishin108
Feb. 7th, 2014 06:22 pm (UTC)
Like the person above wrote, just start with an explanation, maybe re-cap each month if you can? Or each highlight of things that stood out, go thru your calendar?
Good Luck!
yummee_pie
Feb. 8th, 2014 12:56 am (UTC)
Yeah, I think that's what I'm going to do... It's good advice.
arliss
Feb. 7th, 2014 06:08 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry that happened. It feels like a violation, I know, and also like you've lost a part of you, something you took for granted would always be there.

I don't think you can hope to reconstruct--or actually that attempting to do that would be all that healthy. I'd start a new journal with all your present thoughts and day-to-day, and as often as you think of something from the one you've lost, jot down notes or a sketch of an entry that was in it. If more comes with the act of writing it down, go with it. Don't push it, but be open to it.

I recommend incorporating those thoughts and memories into your present journal because if you set aside a journal to write those memories in, chances are you won't have it when the memories come--or you'll have to fuss--close one, find and open the other, which will disrupt, or interrupt the recall. Too, incorporating older memory into your current journal is the same as incorporating memory into your daily life. I think that's healthy, rather than dwelling on what you've lost.

That's what I'd try to do. Good luck.
yummee_pie
Feb. 8th, 2014 01:02 am (UTC)
Yeah, I think that trying to rewrite every single thing would end up being frustrating. I don't want to be so focused on my past and what I lost that I don't keep moving towards my future.
crookedfingers
Feb. 7th, 2014 06:38 pm (UTC)
journals lost or stolen
I have never had any of my journals stolen or lost, but many years ago I burned my diaries from 1968 till 1976. Destroying those diaries was the most stupidest thing I have ever done! I always tell people who keep diaries never destroy them but if you can't stand looking at them just put them away in safe place because someday you will wish you had those diaries. I gave this advice to one of my sons who kept a diary throughout his college years-he wanted to destroy them but I told him not to-those diaries are here at home for him to someday to take to his home when ready to face those difficult times.

I am deeply sorry to read someone stole your diaries-just terrible!
yummee_pie
Feb. 8th, 2014 01:05 am (UTC)
Re: journals lost or stolen
Yeah, I have some diaries that I've had to keep closed up for awhile. Sometimes in my frustration I want to destroy them but I know I never would and would regret it later.
xdogbaitx
Feb. 8th, 2014 08:51 pm (UTC)
Re: journals lost or stolen
see, I've destroyed all of mine, and have never been very bothered about it. But then I think I use a journal as more of a current tool than a rereading tool
crookedfingers
Feb. 9th, 2014 12:46 am (UTC)
Re: journals lost or stolen
I plan to someday destroy my diaries since I have discovered our children do not want them. I told one of our sons that when I die to take my diaries out to a field and burn them-a big bonfire. If I live to be 80 years old I will burn my diaries myself in our fireplace.
sarahrose
Feb. 9th, 2014 04:44 am (UTC)
Re: journals lost or stolen
I am with you on this. I am APPALLED at journal destruction. Just lock them away! Please! For the love of all that is holy! LOL

So sorry you're missing those!
andjadesmiled
Feb. 7th, 2014 10:35 pm (UTC)
Aw Berry :( This is terrible news. I'm so sorry :( It would be logic that the thief would return it once they knew it wasn't a cash book, but then I guess in returning it they may get caught for having stolen it in the first place :(

*huge hug* I'm so sorry this has happened :( How long did the journal span time wise? :(

xoxox
yummee_pie
Feb. 9th, 2014 04:48 am (UTC)
Plus I doubt anyone who would steal a cash book would go through the trouble of mailing it back :( It was the carry-with-me-everywhere journal that I started at the first of the year. I had SO MUCH stuff in it that it wouldn't close on its own. It's strange not having it in my bag when I'm out and about.
smashleighfig
Feb. 7th, 2014 11:19 pm (UTC)
i heard :( I said a prayer about it last night for you. I know how devastating it has to be. ESPECIALLY because of the exciting things that were happening. I really really hope it turns up. I can't believe someone just took it like that :(
yummee_pie
Feb. 9th, 2014 04:53 am (UTC)
I was in total denial when I saw it missing. I thought for sure it was in my bag and I had missed it, but it was even out of the holder. Somebody went through a lot of trouble to steal it.
piratebar
Feb. 8th, 2014 12:25 am (UTC)
i'm so sorry! i can't imagine what that would feel like!

i've never had my journal stolen and i keep all of my old ones in a storage chest up in my room so i've never lost any. however, when i was little, i remember keeping this looney toons journal and to this day, i still wonder about where it went. i was so young that sometimes i think maybe i made it up or that i had dreamt it and only thought it was real.

i really hope it turns up, so sorry this happened to you!
yummee_pie
Feb. 9th, 2014 04:56 am (UTC)
Aw, I had an old Tiny Toons diary that I kept for school!
It's been really strange not having it, especially when I'm out and about because I took it everywhere with me.
alexandrawolff
Feb. 8th, 2014 09:28 am (UTC)
Oh no! My stomach turned when I read your story, I'm so devastated for you :( I haven't had an important journal stolen, but it did happen with a special notebook I had, where I wrote personal entries and all. You definitely need to mourn this -at least I did and it helped- and what I did was in my new journal I wrote about the stealing episode briefly to explain what I was about to do: then wrote 25-30 pages, explaining more or less what I had been writing about in the lost journal. Like a recap thing, like a fluid story. So instead of writing dates, I'd be like "So in November... [insert entire story] and by the time January came...[insert entire story]" it's like fluid, you know? So yeap, that's my 2 cents. Oh man, I hope the thief mails it back to you please please!

*hugs*
yummee_pie
Feb. 9th, 2014 05:11 am (UTC)
That is exactly what I plan to do... I ended up doing a lot of artistic expression first but now I feel ready to sit and write about what happened and that's how I plan to do it. Just one fluid story of the missing pages in my life before continuing on.

I hope it comes back too, but I doubt that anyone who would steal a cash book would go through the trouble of mailing it back. However, if it does come back to me, you can bet there will be a post about it. Possibly way too many exclamation points.
sarahrose
Feb. 9th, 2014 04:42 am (UTC)
I am so sorry. :-( You know how my heart breaks for this situation. I've been thinking about it a lot too.


I'd try to remember what I could, but not in a rewrite/duplication kind of way. Summaries, dates, memories - just whatever you could. Then move forward.


:-(
yummee_pie
Feb. 9th, 2014 05:12 am (UTC)
Yeah, it's really sad. I still feel devastated by it :(
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